Conversations. Wonderful things at times.

Hey there, sorry it's been a long time since I posted. Hope everyone is okay.



Last night I was at a sleepover and the conversations I can have with my friends are just incredible. I felt kind of inspired and relieved of stuff that was floating around my head.



Last night me and two friends (there was five of us there but the other two were talking about TV shows but we all joined in eventually) had a conversation about, well, i suppose you could say it was about the supernatural. we talked about our beliefs in God, our beliefs in evil and the supernatural stuff which hits our TVs all the time. now some things in the 'supernatural' world scare me but this was just a general discussion and it was so, well, different. for once i felt okay about talking about it, i suppose its part of my being to ask questions and search for answers. i have been told that its okay to ask questions, its only natural to any human being.



So, we had this conversation talking about our faiths. the twins both have really, in my eyes, strong faiths. stronger than mine. i feel mine is really small at the minute and i don't know why. i feel i have to keep searching till i find it for myself, i know it in my head but i only feel i believe in God in my heart, i can't seem to grasp it right and i suppose its something that'll come in time with my searching. anyway, one of the twins really believes in God. she was saying how if she's ever physically on her own with no one around her she doesn't feel alone, someone is there. When she is scared she repeats the line "as i walk through the valley of death i shall fear no evil, for you are with me". it calms her down knowing that He is always there. that is really inspiring to me. the other twin also really believes although she thinks different to her twin.



The other girl i was talking to about this said she doesn't believe because she's scared that if she believes in a good side then she cant ignore the fact that there is a bad side. and that scares her. it scares me too (especially after a few episodes of a few TV shows!) but i know i can come to no harm with God near me. but again, i just KNOW, not really feel. (i do sometimes, but not all the time)



another thing we talked about was things like spirits. we talked about whether or not we believed in them being around kinda thing. now i do because i have an open mind about these sorta things. as long as they are not scary, they intrigue me. I'm not saying I'm a ghost hunter or something, i just have an open mind. i feel that if we believe in the Holy Spirit then well, that's a spirit isn't it? so why not?



i dunno if i should've posted this but it just felt like a building block conversation for my faith to build i think. i thought it would be good to share and see what people say about it, their advise and opinions. I'm not straying, cause i know whats right and whats wrong, I'm just searching.



thanks.

bec x