Time to move on?

The other day I was having a conversation with my dad about singing cause we were listening to some beautiful songs by hillsong and I commented that I would love to be a part of that sort of worship either leading or being in the choir. My dad replied saying I'd have to leave the SA to do something like that...

Leaving the SA has been something I've been thinking about doing, sometimes I wonder what I'm doing there..."why am i here?" and I can't really answer it properly. That scares me a little. It means that I'm not there for what I should be there for. All the things I've been going to the army for in the past have all died down...sometimes in the midst of a lot of people whom I know I love and they love me, I somethimes feel alone. I don't know how that happens but sometimes it's true. I really don't wanna go though. I was thinking about having a break for a while after Christmas, not going because i have exams in January, giving me a break to prepare and do my best and to also think and have a break.

Can anyone tell me if they ever felt this way? I don't wanna leave the Army so any help would be fully appreciated.

Thanks,
Bec x