time goes by .... so ...quickly actually...

wow whee...2007 almost over...Christmas is here again and it all feels slightly surreal. i don't know if its just me getting older...i think it is but it doesn't feel like Christmas...not yet anyways. it probably will on Tuesday..it did that last year. but i cant tell why...something kinda feels missing or wrong. i cant put my finger on what it is...I'm assuming its the fact that I'm older and the excitement of being a little kid at Christmas time has gone replaced with the excitement of getting more expensive useful items.

it feels like yesterday i was getting up at five in the morning to watch a film with my brother and my grandma before getting my parents up and rushing downstairs.....that was exciting! i cant believe that its just about 2008 and I'm nearly 17...where has all the time gone? it kinda leaves me flabbergasted about all the things in life -this year and all the years which have gone by in a blink of an eye...it may not have felt like it at the time but it has gone by so quickly...so many thoughts....so many laughs....cries....mistakes....so many good times that are unforgettable. so many different people that I've met along my way....so many people that i am going to meet along my way through this life...

what is planned is amazing....what has passed was planned....what has passed has been amazing

i kinda dread the new year as i don't know what it holds....i always do dread it in a way. but i know that it has to happen and that what is in store for me will be good - in the end.